2013 is almost over, and although I have a couple of regrets (this poor, neglected blog being one of them) they only exist because of the crazy amount of work and learning that I’ve done this year. So I never posted any of the other blog entries that I started and never finished…so I did not even come close to meeting my book goal this year…it turns out, I’ve done a lot of other things with that time.
For a while now, I’ve been in a sort of limbo between being a full time freelance makeup artist, as much as that can exist, and a part time bartender. Bartending has always allowed me to pursue whatever artistic endeavors I want, and the time to do so at my leisure. I am forever grateful to bartending for the freedom that I would never have had with a 9 to 5 job, and for the income that ultimately helped me earn my BFA, get started as a makeup artist, buy a house, and visit my favorite cities throughout the year. I love you bartending, but I think we’re almost done.
This year I worked on three films in their entirety; one as an assistant, one as dept head / key, and another as key makeup artist. I learned fast and hard what it’s like to be in charge, and what it’s like to give up your life to a project, day in and day out. I learned to trust my instinct and to speak up for myself and my team. I learned that there is never enough communication. I learned that the worst situations are still worthwhile as an experience. I learned that I really can do my best work every day, in spite of unfavorable circumstances. I learned a lot about my strengths and weaknesses, and I was lucky enough to be surrounded by people who helped me understand those parts of myself. I can still say that I love what I do, and only want to see, do, and learn more in the coming year.
The last six months have been non stop work. I worked on difficult, artistically challenging projects, as well as relatively easy and totally enjoyable commercial jobs. I got a chance to day play on one of the many shows being shot in Chicago this year, with hopefully more to come. I finally assisted an artist that I’ve known and admired for years, and I felt right at home with her. I will be a very lucky girl if she keeps using me in the new year. My favorite photographers still call me, my favorite producers still call me, and every single time I am thrilled. I am inching towards my goal of being a full time makeup artist.
With all of this wonderful work, I had to make the difficult decision to step away from something else that I love very much — burlesque. For nearly five years, burlesque has been a constant in my life. It deserves its own damn blog! I can say without a doubt, that doing burlesque was always hard, and it was always worth it. Leaving the Chicago Starlets was the best and worst decision, because although I really do miss it, A LOT, I had to leave out of absolute necessity. I no longer had the time to dedicate to this art form that I adore, and it wouldn’t be fair to do it half-assed. If something is worth doing, it’s worth doing well.
So this means I’m becoming one of “those” people. I think about work all the time, I am excited about work all the time, and even though I am looking forward to some time off in Mexico fun, and LA for IMATS next month — I seriously cannot wait to get home and get back to work.
I’m not much of a “new year’s resolution” person. I believe that if you truly resolve to do something, or change something, you’ll just do it a little bit every day, without having to make a big deal out of it. So my goals are much the same, I want to continue along the path that I’m on because things just keep getting better. Oh, and I really do want to read more books and write more blogs!
Happy New Year!